Graduation

I just graduated in May. It was not exciting. It was not hectic. It did not seem like a transitional period, either. It was just...graduation, I guess. I wore a robe, walked down an aisle, joked with my friends, and shook Jon Wallace's hand (boy was that a rush). I am sad that I completely missed out on my one college graduation that I will probably ever experience.

It is eight months later, and it is in these past few months that I have finally been able to experience a graduation of sorts. I have experienced excitement for the new phase in my life. Things are hectic (boy are they). And I can't even begin to explain where the transitional period started or where it may end.

I am living at Camp Hammer right now, in a staff room with simply a bunk bed, closet, and a bathroom. I spend half my week working as a Human Resource Assistant at Macy's, and half of my week going to school at Western Seminary. Somewhere in between those two I put in 12 hours at camp and maintain some close relationships.

Today I moved everything I own into a new residence (for the fourth time in the past four months). Well, I still have more stuff to move. People keep expressing deep pity for me, but I'm not sure that's what I'm feeling. I also am extremely busy, but I don't think I'm stressed. Friendships have been struggling and breaking, but I haven't felt much grief.

What I have been experiencing is change, conflict, and adventure... and I think in some way this is what I have been wanting. Four years in college provided me with none of these (believe it or not). I have been learning to love my friends. I have been realizing the beauty in life. Finally, I have been pressed to need God. I have never needed God, at least not for more than a few weeks or months at a time... but each time I drive up and down this mountain, I know that the life ahead of me will not contain the change, conflict, and adventure my heart truly desires unless I'm seeking God every moment of my day.

So here I am, traveling almost 2 hours in my car each day of the week... experiencing my post-graduation dilemnas.